Rock love
August 8th, 2011 § Leave a Comment
This summer is proving to be just what my heart and soul needed! I am so light, happy and at peace, it makes me wonder “what in the hell was I thinking”??
My heart is so full of love and joy. I am having a great time! We have adjusted well to serenity! Spending lazy days on the river, hiking all over the area with people who amazing, having friends and family to share meals with, looking up at the stars at night, romping with The Giant Dog and connecting with God in the best way. Building gardens, meditating, making goals, and finding my bliss are back in play!
It is a far cry better then the unappreciated summer a year ago. God knew my heart and knew just where I needed to be and I am home!
I have lost the heavy burden of trying to relate to someone who is not available mentally or emotionally. I have lost the toxicity of living every day with an abusive, angry, broken addict. I have lost the roll of caretaker of an adult that should have been able to care for himself. I have lost the hollowness I felt. I have lost the anger, pain and darkness that was all consuming. I have also lost 27 pounds!! Frankly, I do not miss any of my losses for they are actually gains!
I love being free to be myself. I love being back in touch with who I really am and not being ridiculed for it. I love myself!
